Like a pregnancy, three months is the magic number in kidney transplants. During the first three months after the operation, everybody stands around waiting to make sure that the transplant “takes.” The doctors are alert to any sign of rejection. If after three months the kidney is still behaving itself and shows no signs of quitting, the doctors -- and the donor and recipient -- breathe a sigh of relief.
On Thursday it will be three months since the operation. Today (Monday) I went for my first check-up with the transplant team at the AMC in the person of Sylvia ter Meulen, the head of the live transplant team. Sylvia is one of those people with a big smile who just oozes positive energy and enthusiasm, and when I told her I felt great and had not a single complaint she just glowed with happiness and satisfaction.
One interesting development that we discussed was this peculiar feeling of energy and good health I’ve noticed -- peculiar because not only do I feel normal, but I feel better than normal. I find myself coming up with new ideas: things I want to change, such as the logo of the business and the whole computer operating system I’m working on. I want to send out a mailing to my clients to thank them for their patient kindness during my convalescence and to let them know I’m fully recovered. I’ve volunteered to join the parish council again, and have agreed to become the church secretary. But I also feel more awake then ever. I feel more spring in my step. I feel less beaten down, less overwhelmed, less frustrated by a lack of time or energy. I feel more capable, stronger.
Jim recently told Sylvia about this at one of his bi-weekly check-ups, and she replied in an e-mail, “I'm glad Nancy is doing so well, though it doesn’t really surprise me. In fact, some studies (I believe in Sweden) even show that living kidney donors experience a better quality of life after donation!” I found a scholarly article on the internet about the quality of life of kidney donors (“Impact on living kidney donors: quality of life, self-image and family dynamics,” Nephrology Nursing Journal, Sept-Oct, 2005 by Patricia A. Fisher, Denise J. Kropp, Eileen A. Fleming), and several paragraphs stood out:
Quality of life issues have been studied in regard to living kidney donors. According to Ciszek, Paczek, and Rowinski (2003), kidney donors have been reported to have enhanced life quality and self-esteem. Other quality of life studies (Corley et al., 2000, Gouge et al., 1990) have also shown that donors were generally positive overall about donation, but that it did not enhance their overall quality of life.
This article is a report of a study that was conducted with a group of live kidney donors from Akron City Hospital in Ohio (all the surviving live donors whose donation had occurred since the transplant program there began in 1967 and who could be located, or 119 individuals). As a result of the study:
Sixty-two percent of the donors in this sample rated their current health as very good to excellent. The average standardized physical component summary scale score of the SF12 for this sample was 51.5 with a standard deviation of 7.3, which is slightly higher than the norm of the general U.S. population average score of 50.12 (Ware, Kosinski, & Keller, 1998). The majority of the participants (75%) reported not being limited at all in physical functions, but 9% reported that bodily pain interfered with their normal work quite a bit of the time. The average standardized mental health component summary scale score for this group of donors was 50.6 with a standard deviation of 9.21, which again is slightly above the U.S. general population norm of 50.04. Only one person reported feeling downhearted and blue all of the time, while 71% reported feeling this way little to none of the time.
Overall, donors were satisfied with their decision to donate. Ninety-one percent of the donors reported that if they could go back, knowing what they know now, they would make the same decision to donate. Even those that ranked the negative factors of the decision-making process as important reported that they would encourage another person to donate (r = -0.24, p = .039).
Individuals who decided to donate of his or her own free will were generally very satisfied with the decision to donate. The majority of donors felt a continued sense of closeness with their recipients as well as an enhanced happiness and self-esteem.
Sylvia echoed these sentiments in her talk with me today. She said donors generally begin valuing life and their own health more. This is quite true. I’m deeply grateful that I was healthy enough to give Jim my kidney, and I’ll never again take my health for granted. I’m relieved the whole thing is behind us and relieved it all turned out so well. I guess “self esteem” has something to do with it, although I don’t go around feeling like a hero. The stress is gone. Someone at church yesterday pointed out that I had made the ultimate sacrifice, that I had done all that could be done, and this knowledge must have some kind of impact. We know that stress has an enormous impact on physical well-being. In the year since I began being tested as a possible donor I’ve lost 7 kilos, or 15.4 pounds! I’ve gone down a whole size. So the reverse must also be true: the impact is just as enormous when the stress is gone.
But I also wonder if it also doesn’t have something to do with the triumph over fear and the decision to act out of freedom. I told Jim yesterday that it was like fighting a dragon and winning. I think the reason I don’t go around feeling like a hero is that I know how difficult it was to say yes and to overcome my fears, and I have no more illusions about my own weaknesses. I know that the next challenge that presents itself is going to demand a brand new decision, that the dragon is never really slain, and that the best you can do is to sharpen your dragon-slaying skills. It’s worth the effort.
So the reverse must also be true: the impact is just as enormous when the stress is gone.